Hello dear reader and my future client. I just want to say “Hello and welcome to my blog :)”.
I am not a writer, I am a talker. I like to talk. My speech flows much better in a conversation, so I hope you will appreciate my effort in writing :).
I have always struggled with writing. I never knew what the teacher wanted me to say or what the poet meant by writing a poem, nor what the writer meant in the evergreen novel. I was struggling. I was struggling, because when I was in school words were that – just words. I believed every promise made to me and I got my heart broken so many times. I disconnected from myself. I thought that I had to be always strong. I believed that I had to wear make-up all the time. I believed that to be accepted by the society I have to be slim, pretty and obedient. But slim, pretty and obedient is just not me.
My earliest memory of struggling is at the age of 5. That was an extremely hard year for me. The year when my life turned upside down. The year when my sister was born and I lost my parents’ attention because the baby needed it. Go and explain to a 5-year-old why the parents do not have time for you but they still love you. I was protesting so hard against their choices and no one listened to the 5-year-old, because the parents know better. That year my voice was taken from me. That year I lost my self-worth. That year my self-esteem disappeared.
And now at the age of 46, I have found my voice, my self-esteem and my self-worth. I have accepted myself and decided with this blog to share how.
I hope this blog will help other people to gain a little bit more understanding about why they are unhappy or feel less than, not enough or why they settle for less than they deserve. The reason I want to do that is to help them realise it first and start changing their life for the better, just like I did.
So please, excuse my unpolished way of writing (I was promised it will get better LOL).
